Welcome to my blog re-launch

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Today is the day. I'm officially re-launching my blog. 

To be clear, I've never consistently posted on this blog. But, 2021 is a new year. 

2020 taught me a lot of things. Many things in my life were uprooted in 2020. I took a new position at work, moved to a new state, bought a house, financially survived my husband losing his job and had many personal realizations about who I am and how I fit in the world. 

It was a lot, but I know that I am not the only person who experienced huge changes (good and bad) during 2020. 

In this blog, I want to talk about those changes. I want to talk about them not because I believe my story and my experience is superior, but to offer a real, honest look at life. 

I know many people like me experienced a lot of hard changes in 2020. For most of us, life will never again be like it was before the coronavirus pandemic began in March. Many of us are forever changed. 

For some, the pandemic, racial tensions and turbulent election made you re-evaluate who you are. If you lost your job (and suddenly found yourself with a lot of free time and nowhere to go), you may have made new discoveries about who you are or reconnected with what you truly love to do. 

I've personally asked a lot of hard questions in the last year. Questions that have shook my core. For a long time I resisted these questions, shoving them to the back of my mind. In 2020, the closet got too full and I had no more room for hard questions. Everything began to feel like a hard question, so I started filtering through the deep nagging ones one by one. 

Many of my posts will focus on these hard questions. Maybe you have the same or similar questions. I know I felt very alone in my questions, even lying about my doubts or concerns. Sometimes, it's easier to give people the answer they expect than to open the big, ugly closet full of concern. 

Now, I'm going through my closet of concern. I want to show you some of the weird things I've held on to for most of my life. I want to bring these questions to the light because I know your questions look a lot like mine. 

On this blog, I promise to be honest. I will not always be pretty and put together. This is not Instagram and I am not a bikini model. I am also not getting paid to write any of this. 

I simply want to offer my unfiltered story. Maybe, through my questions and my hair-pulling, you can find the courage to ask your own questions and find a truer version of yourself. 

If you haven't already, you should subscribe to my newsletter. Every week you'll get an email from me including a link to my latest blog post and a lil note from yours truly. 

Thanks for reading and happy questioning. 

Comments

  1. MarieJanuary 23, 2021 at 11:14 AM

    What keeps me up at night? JACK literally otherwise i would be sleeping from the exhaustion. 😂 What kinds of things do i ponder? So many things. Selfishly, most of my thoughts are not big how to make the world better kind of thoughts but more along the lines of how is this all going to work out? What will happen to Jack when I am old and frail? Will Medicare for all or some similar cookie cutter because rich people want to decide how the rest of spend our money plan keep Jack from getting the specialized care he needs? How will i continue to function on the bits of sleeping I am getting?
    Looking forward to reading more of your thoughts.

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